holy crap!

i think it finally hit me today. actually, it started last night while reading one of the week-by-week pregnancy books. i had no idea, but apparently i’m entering the third trimester as we speak. how did this happen? on one hand, time could not possibly go fast enough. on a daily basis i find myself wishing human gestation was seven months long instead of nine plus. and yet, now that i’m entering the last third, i’m totally flipping out. i woke up at five-something this morning thinking about the nursery and how bare and unready it is. i started to question our strategy of ‘less is more.’

but then, i got ready for work, was pleased with my outfit and decided it was going to be a good day after all. that’s what it comes down to these days–the outfit can make or break my whole outlook. i ran into a friend at the coffee shop and she told me not only that i looked great but that i was glowing. now, i’m about the least glowing pregnant lady i’ve ever met so i felt pretty damn good at that point.

but then, after work we went to our scheduled interview with a potential childcare provider and when we arrived at her house she told us she forgot all about the meeting and asked to reschedule. ok. a little flaky but she was recommended by a friend so it’s not a deal-breaker. except that suddenly she might not have the opening we need in april like she originally thought she would. and j. swears she smelled smoke on the woman–which would actually be a deal-breaker. we rescheduled for next week but that pretty much sent me into a panic. she was our last prospect connected to a personal recommendation. now we’re left searching the minneapolis childcare website blindly. the thought of giving my three-month old to a complete stranger for eight hours a day is a little more than i can tolerate right now. the life of a stay-at-home mom is looking better and better at this moment.

on a positive note, j. did the research on what we need to get for the breastpump. my friend is loaning me hers–which amounts to just the motor really. then you get your own tubing, etc. now we can make a $50 investment instead of a $300 one. who doesn’t love that?

and when j.’s parents visited last weekend they purchased the stroller we had chosen. that’s another big decision out of the way. so we’re not totally unprepared here. maybe i just need to focus on what we actually have done and not all the stuff we still need to do.

i caught my first glimpse of my belly button the other day–through the shirt i was wearing. i was wondering when that would happen. you know how if you look at really pregnant bellies the belly button totally shows under clothing? that’s me now. did i mention i weighed a good five pounds over the “recommended” weight gain at my last appointment? that was great, let me tell you. but i’m still not giving up my pie.